It's been about 4 months since my last entry. (Boy, that reminds me of going to confession as a child). The last 4 months have been a whirlwind of emotions for me. Still trying to figure out a new normal and getting into the groove of things at work had been a struggle emotionally. There doesn't seem to be enough time in the day to even clear your mind and figure out what to do next.
As I mentioned previously, they were doing layoffs at work. Well, on August 2nd, I got the news that I was one of 14 being laid off. I knew they were coming, and had a pretty good idea I was one of them, but I didn't expect it so soon. I guess you can say it's a blessing (what else am I going to think). I have to believe that everything happens for a reason, and maybe this time off will give me the chance to mentally get myself together, and figure out what will make me happy.
My last day of work is tomorrow, September 20th. I've gone though many emotions the last 6 weeks, from happy to sad, angry, scared of not finding something else, financial burdens if I don't find another job soon. In the end, I do believe that I will be taken care of and He will give me and my family the strength to get us through this.
I'm looking forward to my new journey that I'm beginning, but I will miss the people who've I worked with for the last 4 years. They have helped me through one of the darkest times of my life and for that I will never forget them.
So far, life after Cancer has been OK, I still see doctors every 3 months to keep an eye on things and for that I'm glad. Seeing them makes me feel as if I have a "safety net" and don't worry or think about the cancer returning. That may change in years to come, but I'll deal with that at a much later date.
